on hindsight, i think i should have known better. words can hurt more than sticks and stones, i should have shut up and kept my calm. i don't know, sometimes i just want to get away from it all. anyways, you'll know when i tell you. if i don't, i probably don't want you to know. (:
hmm. went to town wit baby today.
retail therapy man! bought lots of stuff, made myself a happy girl
wenta visit py,wl and sheena at uob for a short while
then i bumped into chengs at flash and splash (:
she was wit her classmates heh at least they all actually like each other
anddd later on at far east i bumped into qiaoy and linwei
who told us that pug jelly was somewhere behind us
and so we saw pug jelly. not that i really care lahh not like theyre really great or sth
anyways we got 'spotted' by a modelling or whatever agency
which is actually out to cheat money la..cos gotta pay for portfolio and stuff
whether u get assignments or not is not their prob
heh. my sister also got 'spotted' by the same agency la
thinking about monday makes me feel sick
i hate mondays
sigh
i think i'm pmsing alr
uh oh, look out, world
i miss you alllll
i think by the end of my pms week i'll have no friends left, haha
esp since nowadays im so inclined to be bitchy
lol. oh wells. i cant help myself sometimes
if i dont like something,i cant help but blurt it out
the people who are used to it are no longer around
sooo now what?? haha. i dunno.
im incoherent.
met up wit sheena and wl yest
was the happiest day of the week for me
i laughed and talked more than i talked and laughed for the whole of last week. :
and i could laugh loudly and talk loudly w/o any reservation nt like in vj
ppl'll just say im noisy. ughs.
haha..oh mans i miss you all SO MUCH
i will never find another wl or maro or sheena again!
you're all irreplaceable man..sigh.
sob. let's meet up more often, i need my dose of craziness every week
or i'll really go crazyyyy. ate orange bowl! whee. (:
and saw mrs seah! who's still wearing her same ole outfit, ah nostalgia. haha
miss her so much too.
if i went to aj i cld practically go back there every single day
lol..but too much of a good thing wld be a bad thing.
anyways i basically dont give half a fuck what anyone else thinks anymore la
i just hafta know who i am
i dont wanna change so that ppl will find me more likeable
i am just the grumpycranky bite you in half me
moodswingy (ahhh pms week ppl!)
but i do love the fact that im taking french
and that i dun hafta do maths
soo
i won't waste myself on youu, you, you and you.
maybe i just hafta learn to be contented with what i have alr
things aren't so bad...i think.
one should not praise or joke with immature irritating boys
because they take it seriously, are mistakenly flattered
and their egos get inflated. UGH.
boys are dense
i don't like boys
men are nice
i like men
esp one man. hahaha.
hmmm. is there a tactful way to say, GET OUT OF MY FACE?
no? right. guess not.
i must be cursed.
i shan't say so much, just that i really hate people who name drop
i am not close to you so please dont feel as if you have the liberty to use my name here and there.and anyone else's for that matter.
PLEASE.
i'm gonna lock my blog or move soon, and if i like you, you'll know it.
st nicks prc scholar in vj. prc scholar is abnormal. she is noticed to be wearing her black and pink sweater ALL THE TIME. kerrie manages to accidentally find out why.
prc scholar was seen to be adjusting sweater. SUDDENLY, a startling revelation was made. prc scholar does not wear a blouse or a shirt under pinafore. kerrie realises she wears her sweater ALL THE TIME (even when its sweltering hot) and zipped to the top BECAUSE she does not wear anything underneath! aspiring scgs girl, ah. prc scholar is observed to be wearing hiking boots also, and looks set to conquer mount everest.
kerrie and st nicks friends are appalled.disgusted.amused.
not-so-startling revelation no. 2
75% of guys in vj are sadly abnormal. most are from cheena schools such as ****** and *** etc. acs guys can be counted on one hand. wait, i only know one. so its one finger. guys with super hairy legs,high socks and school shoes : yuck. fat guys with huge patches of acne : double yuck. all of the above including immaturity : yuckyuckyuck. why cant they all go for ns and come back 2 years later? maybe they can be new and improved. and stop being so whiny. if i give you my turned-off face, please know when to shut up, cos im too nice to say it out loud. haha. sometimes i wish im still in a girls school cos at least girls are not smelly. hehe.
maybe i should stop inflicting my standards on them, hah.
its not so bad now, the school-sickness.
but sometimes i still feel a pang of like, there's something missing when i realise i aint gonna walk out to the busstop wit the pigos, and gossip, and eat recess tgt and stuff.
sad realisation no. 1
st nicks canteen food must be the best canteen food in singapore. where else can you find the fine delicacy called the orange bowl? and hold surveys every year to eliminate unpopular stalls? and have a wide variety of toast fillings? and yupianmifen. muslim food. fried food day.laksa.and stuff. boohoohoo. SIGH.
interesting and not-so-good nugget of info
yuyan told me about this pl girl in aj, who borrowed a st nicks uniform from a certain someone. that girl made alot of noise during the lecture and generally got herself into trouble. the lecturer was v angry and asked her to stand up, and asked her what school she's from. and she said, "st nicks!"
GRR. bitch. if i were there i'd yell out, you bitch, you're not fit to be in st nicks.
haha. oh wells.
lesson learnt: discretion should be exercised when lending out school uniforms.
lastly, i love my baby! (: and i miss him too. sometimes i long for some conversation with someone that actually knows what the hell im talking about, and i dont have to censor myself when im talking to them. in other words, i can truly be myself. i've gotta learn to curb my critical self. if sometimes im quiet, im sorry, im just restraining myself from blurting out something potentially dangerous, haha.
miss you baby. wish more guys are as charming and interesting as you, but they're not! that's why you're unique, hahah.
:D
i'm lost at sea
and everyone's slowly drifting away from me
sometimes i think, oh i can finally see the land again
but when i reach it thinking i can feel the sandy beach under my feet
it dissolves into nothing
and im drifting aimlessly again.
you're my island.
steady,dependable
but the currents of doubt are pushing me away from you
and you can't move to gently pull me back.
incapable,maybe,unwilling, even more so.
for aren't we all just trying to protect ourselves?
you, from me, and I, from you.
for i may destroy your sandy beaches so carefully reclaimed from the sea
and you may pull out suddenly again, from under my feet.
haha weiling don't be silly NOONE can ever replace the pigos
lol
and i cant access ur blog for dunno what reason. hmm.
will tell you bout the new 'club' when i get the chance to la
this is not the place to do it. heh.
we so hao xin wanna come visit but you turn us away mah..
can we all meet up SOON you chicken pox monster
when your chicken pox fades, that is
missmissmiss you all. sheena must be too busy enjoying hc
booo.
anyways the new american idol is getting a lil old
same old freaks same old funny unfunny terrible singing
hmm i hope it gets better?
